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Jan. 28th, 2005 @ 07:19 am Liquor and a Lighter...
Mood: annoyedI fell asleep next to a liar..
Tunes: Brand New : Sudden Death In Carolina
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From:starsandbones
Date:January 28th, 2005 06:04 pm (UTC)

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the bottom of a bottle is whats keeping me alive right now. and im nowhere near okay. lisa, i want you to understand that i dont hate you. but youve ogtta listen. if you dont want me to touch your life in any way, you cant touch mine. you cant pull a saw back and forth. "Her voice like a paintbrush, her eyes used to glow green, fall out, of hatred, a flash photography scene..."
sorry. random burst. its just song lyrics. they arent supposed to mean anything here. i just had them in my head. well...i guess ive said all i have to say. and beleive it or not, im at least worried about your health and well being. look out for yourself okay? .............
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From:lossofxbreath
Date:January 28th, 2005 06:11 pm (UTC)

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screw my health and well being. i'm sorry if i'm only hurting you more by doing things like this, commenting and notes on da and the like. i just can't help it when i read things like this entry...and your response to my first comment. i am so concerned and when i get the urge to ask how you're doing i can't seem to help myself. i don't want to see you suffering...i know you are. i hate that. i know there's nothing i can do. i hate that too.

but again, i'm sorry. i'll try harder to stay out.
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From:starsandbones
Date:January 28th, 2005 06:13 pm (UTC)

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*sigh* i honestly have no idea what to tell you....i need rum, pants, and a new coat................
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From:lossofxbreath
Date:January 28th, 2005 06:16 pm (UTC)

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tell me whatever you want. tell me the truth. tell me nothing. its up to you.

pants and new coat...fine. but rum? no. you know you don't really need it. but i won't let myself tell you what or what not to do. mostly because i know how it feels to think you need things like that...
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From:starsandbones
Date:January 28th, 2005 06:21 pm (UTC)

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i need pants because my pants arent tight enough. *inqusitive* that really doesnt make sense. but its time for THRIFT STORE SHOPIN! and i want one of those long coats that all the "hardcore" girls wear. the ones with the fur around the collar. i wore one the other day. its all comfortable and apparently looks good on me. or at least better than the girl whose car i snagged it out of(my guitarist). and yes i do need rum. it makes me all warm and fuzzy inside.
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From:lossofxbreath
Date:January 28th, 2005 06:25 pm (UTC)

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i'm going thrift store shopping tonight...for men's clothes. and for my guy friends to get girl's clothes. we're having a drag party tomorrow. there will be lots of warm and fuzziness inside me then. and also this afternoon i'll be flying high hopefully. plans are tentative.

i went thrift store shopping wednesday too. i got a new coat...its fur...i stole it. i shoplift now too. ::shrugs::
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From:starsandbones
Date:January 28th, 2005 06:28 pm (UTC)

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oh goodie. we both have destro-lives. super........*stabs self in face* this is fun.
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From:lossofxbreath
Date:January 28th, 2005 06:30 pm (UTC)

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it is fun. its fun to kill slowly kill my braincells...my thoughts...myself. ::dances:: yippee. ::pops more pills::
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From:starsandbones
Date:January 28th, 2005 06:32 pm (UTC)

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it would seem we can do some kind of dance to bring about the appocalypse.....and we have.........
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From:starsandbones
Date:January 28th, 2005 06:32 pm (UTC)

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p.s.rum and coats :)
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From:lossofxbreath
Date:January 28th, 2005 06:37 pm (UTC)

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::dances in new coat::

i dont care for the taste of rum. especially coconut rum, like i had the last time i drank some rum. ick. i don't like coconut. i prefer vodka..and orange juice...screwdrivers...yummy. or really vodka and anything. hell, i like vodka with vodka. i'll drink whatevers around though. just not hennessy.
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From:starsandbones
Date:January 28th, 2005 06:39 pm (UTC)

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i love my rum. i like to take lots of shots of rum. then once im spattered anyway, i drink a couple smirnoff ice to calm my tummy down. I. HATE. BEER. and vodka is over rated. its not that good. nope. *shakes head* ive grown to like burbon and dr pepper. it was tasty. i know because i stole jaxx. *slips off edge of chair* ouch.
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From:lossofxbreath
Date:January 28th, 2005 06:44 pm (UTC)

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mmm...smirnoff is yummy...i like the twisted ice ones...green apple. mmm. i drink beer if its all that there is, but i HATE the taste so i chug it. i get drunk faster that way anyways.

lately though, i've been more into drugs than alcohol. i pass out too fast when i drink. i like to stay up and enjoy the loss of sanity that i get to experience on wonderful, wonderful drugs.

i really want a cigarette right now.
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From:starsandbones
Date:January 28th, 2005 06:47 pm (UTC)

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drugs are bad mmkay? seriously. thats one stupid thing i wont drown in. fuckin drugs. im a lightweight drinker, but that makes it more affordable, and i have the good fortune of not passing out or throwing up. i couldnt even chug beer. its too gross. drugs are stupid...so yeah........i wish the party was tonight and the shopping tommorow. but sadly, i am poor and control nothing but my mind, sex drive, and bladder.
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From:lossofxbreath
Date:January 28th, 2005 06:52 pm (UTC)

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yeah. drugs are stupid. but i do them anyway. i've seen some amazing, crazy things on drugs...the world is so much more beautiful.

i'm poor too, thats why dont pay for stuff...i steal it...and i save any money my mom gives me for food to spend on things other than food cause i dont eat. i wish the party im going to were tonight too. i can't control that either though...just my eating. i think thats the only thing i've got...my mind, sex drive and bladder...nope. i pee all the time. and im horny. and insane.